Renovation

Okay, maybe Rei isn't the one for me after all. But there are some things that must be settled straight in me.

The LORD's infinite wisdom does not allow itself to be boxed in with human restraints--it goes beyond. That there is a multiplicity of His Will scattered all throughout our choices, that His view of things, since He already knows all things from their beginning to end and the courses these things take in their journey towards completion--this means that God honors our freedom to the very point of protecting it from the limits of our reason.

That I have the power to choose if Hannah Rachel will be the one or not. I can make her to be the one, and I can also choose not to make her.

God wanted this principle to be alive in me for the reason that He wants me to take full responsibility for my actions. That the very mistakes I've committed weren't all mistakes--most were just good choices with relatively bad consequences. But my childish way of treating the bad consequences blinded me to the good, unseen, eternal consequences that were entwined with the
good ones.

And this time, He would not be put in a box any more. New chapter, new paradigms, new ways of handling life--with its highly eccentric seasons.

And this time, it will still be about what Christ can do, not what Caleb can do. So this time, I will just hold on to what I still have, let go if I must, endure until perseverance finishes its work and let God be God. Amen.

Renovations.