"2009 was going to be the year of the hunt, the hunt for what I really want in this life, want would really make me happy, the quest to find, not the perfect wife, but a wife that I want." -taken from a blog entry titled "Pero...and the last day of the year" Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Having found the truth of my love for Carmela Jane I tried reflecting the scourge of the previous years that gave my soul its wounds of wisdom. And lo and behold these words rang true like a prophet's voice. Finally, I have made a decision according to the perfect will of the LORD Jesus Christ. The years 2005 to 2008 were years of hearing of the LORD and have heard wrong. 2009 has become the transition from that sorry state into what I am now: decisions based on the unchangeable Truth rather than the undeniable feelings. The quest to find the perfect wife ended in despair, woe, sorrow and unquenchable melancholy. The quest to find the wife that I want only took less than a month and it brought forth happiness, joy, contentment, peace and above all a maturity that causes to see God more clearly.
I am nearing the end of 2009 and with my work in Genesis records with Kuya Mike and my constant battle against the deceitful rage of my heart to keep my love for Carmela alive I expect greater things to come this 2010.
If 2009 has become the end of things for me, then 2010 will be officially the start of new beginnings, the search for another search, the question imposing "what now?"
Happiness is a very busy fellow, though. I am sad to say I could no longer write the same way as before. People around as well as circumstances can be very imposing to one when one is happy.
But the LORD remains faithful. Is there any better conclusion than that?
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